Shika Says

Paddy Pahalad posted this Self Analysis post earlier and tonights Full moon got me thinking about self analysis, awareness (self and general) and consciousness.

In my self analysis journey I am constantly trying to make sure what I say and do are in alignment with what i think and I am constantly aiming for authentic improvement. 

I am the observer of my own thoughts and patterns, somedays its easy other days I have to make an effort.

But then the moment I encounter someone who is blindly saying one thing and acting opposite to it, their incongruency is a nag and my ego engulfs the incongruency with unanswerable questions... and sometimes I notice the 'incongruents' get enraged by my openness which sometimes reveals their hypocritcal nature because I also have a very specific memory of people and their heartfelt expressions... 

I struggle to understand the incongruency of it all... 

Do I stop being open with what I think on matters because their truth is too vulnerable for the incongruents to handle? 

 I have to keep reminding myself not everyone is on this 'living in conciousness' quest that i take on everyday, every moment, think before you speak, thought behind every post... The struggle that is Congition vs Consciousness...

Okay so everyones been there... You know when you realise everyone you know, who knows a certain person, has had a problem with that person and are as confused by their miscommunication as you are? Know someone like that? It's a common occurance.. it just makes you wonder how they themselves keep going on living in a bubble of non-alignment without seeing that pattern, especially when everyone around them sees it so blatantly... It makes me wonder about their self analysis journey... And then my 'thought observant self' says: "Wondering about THEIR self analysis journey is your ego thats talking, your ego thats wondering, so let that shit go, ain't nobody got time for that..." lol 

Alot of my long self awareness journey (past present and future) is also thanks to the people around me esp my mom sis and hubby (even Sai to some degree) the moment i say one thing and do another or come across 'unconcious' in my communication or behaviour they truthfully let me know...

The truth is a hard pill to swallow esp when its about you, but its the only way to free the ego entraping you further into delusions of unawareness. 

And you know, when I am forced to face these truths its easy to get angry, the other option is I can get aligned, and i always find the latter helps the next step. But being self aware is the FIRST STEP.

Today I pondered all this from the morning chat with Paddy and I realise i need to keep reminding myself: Authenticity isn't everyones goal, which is sad but true Self awareness isn't for everyone and that's okay. You do you, let them do them! (And i dont mean 'let them do them' in a 'they can go f@*k themselves' kinda way lol ) 

I mean it in a 'their incongruency shouldn't be an excuse for my ego to have an incongruency party'... 

When you are on a journey of 'thinking about what you think about' long posts like this are a melting pot of understanding.

#ChooseDayThoughts #ChooseAuthenticity #ChooseAwareness #ChooseAlignment #HappyChooseDay #HappyFullMoon #Awwwwoooo